Sunday, November 10, 2013

Venom

My last update was in 2013, 3 years ago. Today, 10th November im here again. My past memories and grudges haunt me again. Its been 16 years since I last saw her. So much has happened. She wasn't with us. I bet she is happily with her own family. Often I asked myself, how could a person be so cruel to do this. How could she? Is the pain she gone through make her become whom she is today? Why she left? Why she hasn't called? She aint stupid or incapable to search for us. Or I would say there isnt any effort done. My questions will remain unanswered.Unknown.
Despite her absence, we manage to survive. Grandpa stayed with me till his last breath, grandma forever will be there support me even thou she grown old, dad stayed.with us all the time and sis will grow old with me. Dad stayed with us for all these years. Looking after us along with grandparents. Im so grateful they are with me, watched me grow and guiding me all the way till today.
I guess this feeling is like a venom root deep down in my heart.i shall never be able to understand, forgive or forget.
I will keep reminding myself to cherish the life ahead of me with the wonderful person I met and decided to grow old with. Hopefully in time to come, I am able to cure the venom inside of me.